it continues...30/30 pt dos!

#24 (1/3/2009)-Poetry, A Letter

wasn't aware that there were rules applied to free expression

i'd like to just talk and let words flow

call that poetry

but apparantely my words aren't big enough

lines not long enough

messages not deep enough

and metaphors aren't metaphorical enough

I don't have the right rhythm to spit you amongst ready ears

so many rules

for something that was discovered without them

so I apologize, poetry

I can only continue to be

but the feeling must be mutual

because you allow me to be

don't trip when I miss a line

or when I take too long to reach a point

I'm getting your message across

just let me be your instrument.

#25 (1/4/2009)-Tainted Promise

the universal heartbeat had to be revived

your announcement threw everything off balance

my world danced to the tune of your drum

but unbeknownst to me, the drumming ceased

causing me to stumble

and in this incident I realized I've grown dependent on you

needing my fix

and regretting the person I become when it's not near

you've become my music, a necessity

knowing that for just one moment it could've been wiped away has potential to kill me

but the drums start again

while you and I dance on glass

stepping lightly and slowly

silently praying that we can both find the tune again.

#26 (1/5/2009)-I Wish I May

she used to wish on stars

sending all her focus to the brightest of them all

took that philosophy and applied it to life

"star light, star bright; first star I see tonight..."

first star I see tonight

first star I see tonight

no one told her that she didn't have to give all her energy to one star

let alone the first she sees

tell her to hold on to her wish

gaze at all the stars

the one for her may not be the first

possibilities are limitless in the skies

so her choice is hers for the making

any one of those stars should be blessed to have her wish

just as any is willing to take it

but she has to be careful

take advantage of discernment

it may not be the first star she sees tonight.

#27 (1/6/2009)-Wait List.

Dear You,

it's been a while since we've talked

now let's skip the specifics

i know what this is about

crowding the screen of my smart phone with your dumb ass questions

"how's life?" "how you been?"

all filler; the warm up to the matter at hand

you wanna know a lot of things

but the question that pulses in the front of your mind

never to leave your lips, unless uttered in some incoherent, secret coded fashion

"you still, um...intact?"

"made that move yet?"

and a personal favorite

"still locking it down?"

you no longer have permission

to even have the balls to ask me this question

lack of patience canceled out your like for me

causing my tolerance to dissipate

but I thank you anyway for showing me who you really were

almost laughed when you said you'd wait until my say-so...

who told you my say so would be for you?

holding on to my last piece of me

and you just want a piece of me

so I'll continue to cradle what's mine

grab onto it like you would your nuts

spit my excuses like you spit your game

because that's what it's turned into

cheap trinkets leading to the top prize

news flash: movie tickets, paid dinners, bells and whistles

approval by your closest niggas

even meeting the woman who brought you into this world

won't bring you into mine

takes much more

so simple, but if you can't figure out

you're certainly not what I'm looking for

so just think

it could've been you

to venture to an unchartered land

make my body quake with the softest touch of your hand

mark your territory by putting your lips on places

then laugh later about my "during" faces

but I won't say too much

it's been a long time

and we've lost touch

all I can do is smile

at a lame attempt to learn about something

that was temporarily worth your while

suffering from Til It's Gone Syndrome

and a horrible case of raging testosterone

besides

if you'd really like to know "how" I am

do yourself a small favor.

ask my man.

#28 (1/7/2009)-Challenge

Someone tell Satan

To come harder than this. Back

to the drawing board.

#29 (1/8/2009)-Forestry Melodies

from your veins to mine

take me on a ride

drift on clouds as I float away

I wish not to come back

this is where I belong

self discovery is prevalent in this place

taken to the conscious of my conscious

true self resides

escape to new planes through your vapors

a burning sweetness enters lungs

secretions of carelessness seep through me

show me what's really trivial

who's to blame me for wanting this rescue

the real world is far worse than this

but you help me temporarily forget

thought I would keep you to myself

but others sing your praises

guess they need the same help

it's a love/love relationship

you and I

I'm stuck to your side

you stick to my hands

let those ignorant bastards say what they please

we both know what's best for me

try to keep you away

you're a moneymaker

and there are some who will abuse you

but they will never appreciate the experience

as we do

you're everywhere

and I can't be all those places at one time

but I can in my mind.

#30 (1/9/2009)-Career Day

it's almost his turn

hearing the same aspirations back to back

has made him tired

everyone wants to be nurse

football or basketball player

and every now and again

lawyer is thrown in the mix

but today's his day to wow the crowd

4th grade mind already equipped beyond his years

he steps up to the front of his class

faces his peers

burgandy uniform pants etching detailed stories of yesterday's play date

and his shirt is transforming to a slight beige

but his notebook is spotless

chest held high, eyes straight ahead

he braces himself for laughter

what he's about to say is utterly ridiculous

"When I grow up, I'm going to be President."

the room falls silent

searches his classmates' eyes for approval

and is surprised to see all smiles

waits for teacher's predictable snicker

and hears nothing

but sees the single tear drop from his teacher's eye

the silence lets him know

it's now possible

it can be done.

Whew! I finally finished it! Every poem has been sitting in my journal, waiting to be typed since the 9th. But...you know what I said earlier. Anyways, I hope this 30/30 has been pleasing to you, and if it hasn't...*shrug* don't know. I will say it was a challenge for me, but I will most definitely be doing this again soon.

(deuces.)

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